Hi all! Or to those of you that have ventured on to this blog. I'm still not quite sure what it is I'll be blogging about, but I know that I've decided to start in the health arena and go from there.
I'm not starting here because I have all the answers to getting a fantastic and healthy body and this is by no means a how-to; in truth I don't know anything. Like many people I have struggled with my weight and health; been down on myself because I don't look like the beautiful people in magazines or on TV and I definitely don't have those nicely defined abs that everyone strives for. I honestly think those super-defined abs are a myth- a fairytale that health magazines and trainers have created to make us work harder; or pant over when Emma Stone makes Ryan Gosling take off his shirt. OK that's a lie, a nice set of defined abs is totally attainable; I just don't have them and that makes me a little green.
So like I said, I'm not an expert and this blog isn't meant to be a how-to in any way; it's a way for me to share my own journey, starting with health and fitness and branching out; and hopefully inspire others who are going through the same thing and get feedback and advice from those of you that actually know what you are talking about.
Now I have to be honest, I'm not going into this completely from scratch. I'm a runner and workout almost on a daily basis-so why am I stuck? That's a question that I keep coming back to time and time again. I get it, the diet is 90% of the success and that's probably the issue. So I'm seeing a nutritionist and there's a little weight loss but not much and life is very stressful so I don't feel successful. (See what I did there?)
So part of this is to be completely forth coming about everything; I have been heavy my whole life. There I said it, I am overweight. Whew, that was bit of reality that was hard to swallow but will ultimately help me. Because I am that person that always say's "I'm so fat"; expecting everyone to go "No you're not". I'm not fat, I am unhealthy and it's not good for my body to be at weight it is unless it's all muscle. So that's the first step that I'm going to take-realize and accept the truth but in a helpful, non destructive way.
Coming from a family that is over weight, didn't look into nutrition that much, wasn't that active and really needed to live on a budget didn't help my health. I tried to be active in school; joined a lot of team sports and tried hard but seeing all of the tiny, fit class mates of mine excelling where I couldn't even keep up and snickering about me behind my back really discouraged me.
The teachers sorta tried, they never really took a real interest in me since I'm sure that they had a lot of other things to deal with so there wasn't a lot of time to help me work through it or feel better about myself. They gave up on me and so did I. Because for the longest time I never thought I was worth the effort.
There was one coach I had that to this day does inspire me; my swim coach. She was tough and never accepted excuses and in her middle age still looked amazing. When she wasn't a coach she was one of the nicest people I have ever known and one of the few people that ever believed in me and my abilities to swim. Thanks to her, I started to see some results from swimming, loosing weight and seeing my clothes get loose. The results never stuck though, I ate terrible, cheap, processed food at an alarming caloric intake. I had no idea how to manage portions, I was and still am a bottomless pit.
This endless cycle is what I aim to end and I hope that this blog turns out to be an effective tool to help that goal.
Cheers to being healthy and happy everybody!
